The good — Absent Minded Professor and I had a meeting with Energy Boy’s teachers this morning to tell them what’s going on. They’re wonderful women, very caring, compassionate. We basically wanted them to know because EB’s behavior may be showing the effects of the stresses and it’s important for them to know what’s going on. As the family therapist said, it’s important that they — and we — remain consistent with expectations of EB and with discipline, especially now. As she put it, discipline with empathy. Anyways, if discipline changes during a time like this, that scares a child more than anything and makes them wonder what is going on. So we covered that as well as some other stuff. All in all, a very good meeting.
The bad — I went to my family Dr. for this cough that won’t quit. She gave me a breathing treatment which did help, and a few prescriptions. She also obtained the CT scan that the hospital took of the chest, abdomen, and pelvis. She wanted to see if I had any pneumonia which was contributing to the cough.
I didn’t.
However, the CT scan leads to the really ugly:
The cancer has metastasized into my lungs and liver. Small spots in each, but it’s a big blow, as I’m sure you can imagine.
She said that people can and do beat this, that all it means is that the oncologist will make the treatment more aggressive.
Through tears, I told her that my family needs me.
She said that I’ll be around for them, that people do beat this all the time.
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I’ve never been so scared in all my life.
Oh Judy,
I just want you to be here so I can wrap my arms around you and just hug. I know you are scared and that’s absolutely understandable. Just know that we are all here for you – whatever you need.
Oh Judy, love. I am thinking of you LIKE CRAZY!!!! Hugs and kisses to you and so much blue healing light speeding its way from Columbus! Powering to you!!!!!!
Oh, Judy! I am thinking all kinds of good thoughts for you right now. *hugs* I’m so glad your doctor thought to do the CT scan, for all that the news is scary and ugly. Lots of hugs and positive thoughts and vibes coming your way.
Judy,
I have been reading your blog for about the last year. I found it through adoption. The first posting of yours’ that I read was a letter you had written your son’s Birth Mom. I couldn’t believe it. Your words were exactly what I was thinking about my son’s BM. I ran and got my husband. I said “This is exactly how I feel. It’s amazing”. I have been following your story ever since. I am sorry about the cancer. It’s scarey but I want you to know I “check” on you every morning and I pray for you every night.
Sending positive thoughts from Idaho.
Erin
(((((((((((((((((Judy))))))))))))))))))) I have no words, just warm hugs and prayers, so many prayers. I wish there was more I could do for you and your family. This news has to be such a big blow… praying oh praying for you, for your doctor, that he will know just the right treatment to beat it.
((((((((((Judy))))))))))
We’re thinking of you every single day. I don’t know what else to say, so here are more hugs:
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Oh Judy, I’m so sorry to hear this. You are definitely in our prayers!
*HUGS*
Oh, Judy. I’m updating our prayer chain right now. And I’m going to call and cry to my Mom for a bit. *hugs for you*
I’m so sorry. I don’t know what else to say.
“She said that people can and do beat this. She said that I’ll be around for them, that people do beat this all the time.”
Damn straight!!! And YOU, Miss Judes, WILL be one of those who beats this beast.
FIGHTING for you the best way I know how through prayers, thoughts and positive energy.
Much love and big, big hugs.
Aw Judy. I know that this was SO not the news you wanted to hear. It sure wasn’t what any of us who love and admire you wanted to read. But there it is. As much as you are able, try to stay in the moment and not spiral out into some scary future that may not come to pass. You are here now. You are surrounded by love. You are GIVING so much love. You’ve got so much love surrounding you. You are not alone. Of course it’s scary as hell. You’re going to get through this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Hi, Judy,
I’m here via Dawn’s blog.
My mom was diagnosed with lung cancer – and she beat it. The battle was awful and scary – and she beat it. It DOES happen, even when the news is really scary.
I am thinking good, powerful, supportive thoughts of you as you go kick cancer’s ass.
Ahhh crap!
Get ‘er. Get the bitch. I know it can be done.
oh judy! *hugs* i can’t imagine what you’re feeling right. you’re in my thoughts. sending lots of love and good vibes to you and your family.
Oh Judy, I’m so sorry. You don’t know me, I’ve been lurking for a while, enjoying your writing and your pespective. You have so many people rooting for you, and so many reasons to live — this is hard news, but if determination (on your part) and well wishes (on our part) count for anything, you *WILL* evict the bitch!
In the words of the LOL Cat Bible (www.lolcatbible.com): “U be strong. U be curragous. Dont be all, OH NOES cuz i gotchoo.”
I can’t help but shed some tears as I read this. The Bitch really needs to quit kicking you when you’re down.
Okay **more composed now**… I choose to visualize your awesome weekend at Disney with Nate. We’ll let Mickey start kickin’ the Bitch’s butt. Mr. Disney would be so proud!
((((Judy))))
((((Judy))))
I am praying for you.
You can beat this!!!!
Judy,
I have been checking and rechecking for updates, and I am floored. But if anyone can beat it, Judy, you can.
Love,
A.
Hi Judy,
I came from Dawn’s site. I hate your cancer and am sorry you have it.,
I love your terminology about “evicting” it.
I just signed up to do the Pan-Mas challenge ,which is a fund raising bike ride for DanaFarber in Boston, for the 7th time and this year I will pin your name to my shirt when I ride.
Hope and peace to you, and I’ll keep reading and praying.
I’m speechless. And I’m praying for you, as are so, so many. You are surrounded by love, Judy.
I’m sorry for the news, Judy… You are strong. You will beat this.
Judy,
OH MY GOD, I am so sorry to hear about this. I cannot believe it. You WILL beat this just fine. Doctors don’t lie, you WILL beat this.
Hang on and hang in there. You’re in my thoughts.
Jamie
Judy I know this is crazy scary but this is still very beatable!!! We are accustomed to what “spreading” used to mean to us when we would hear it years ago! Now they have drugs that can get cancer that has started to spread. It sounds like they caught it very early in the spreading phase.
Sending you big hugs and praying for you every day!
((((Judy)))) Thinking only good thoughts right now — and thinking of you ALL the time. As you navigate the winding path of he says, she says and all the new information, keep your eyes on the prize. Keep lookin g straight ahead and plowing through. Straight ahead, fighting her off and letting her know who is BOSS. Eyes on the prize, eyes on the prize.
I’m thinking of you and sending all my good vibes right to you.
Happy adventure with Nate!
L,
Gretchen
I’m rooting for you Jude! I’m rooting for all of you!