today


Today I am grateful. Today I am blessed. Today I cry tears of joy, of emotion, instead of tears of sorrow, fear, and anger. Today (as with all days) I appreciate my family and friends, everyone who loves me and who I love. Today I am so incredibly blessed.

Today I had an appointment with my oncologist, Dr. Funky Glasses (Dr. FG) who told me: 1. my cancer tumor markers have gone down, and even though they’re not a definitive for how I’m responding to the chemo, I was happy to hear that; 2. that I can probably live “many years” with my type of cancer, that her plan is for me to live many years; 3. that I’ll have a CT scan on Feb. 7 to get a real picture of how I’m responding to the chemo; and, 4. that there are many treatments for my kind of cancer and many more will come as time goes on.

Today. Today I thank God for my life. Today I love my life again. Today I’m encouraged, boosted, happy.

Today I know, as I do all days, that there’s no cure for what I have, that I will probably die from this. Yet today, it’s OK. Today, if I can have “many years,” it’s very OK, more than OK. Today, I accept it.

Today Absent Minded Professor squeezed my hand when Dr. FG told us that my cancer tumor markers had gone down. Today I had an honest conversation with Energy Boy in which I told him the good news. Today, I heard him respond, “YAY!” Today, I also told him that there aren’t any guarantees and that I might get sick again, but that the important thing is that Dr. FG said “many years.”

Today I didn’t ask Dr. FG to define “many years.” Today, and in the future, I’ll use my own definition of “many years.” Today is mine.

Today I thank God for my life, for this good news, for all my blessings.

Today is all I have right now, and today is a wonderful thing.

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Cross-posted to Mothers With Cancer.

15 thoughts on “today

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  2. great news. i am so happy for you and hope things keep looking better and better.

  3. Please continue to enjoy your life you deserve every moment of it..I pray for myself and people around the world and you are amazing for pushing through everything determining your on faith and true destiny in life…God bless and take care, and continue to write I enjoy your story..you touched my heart sincerely!

    LaurenLaurell-

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  5. Hey ,
    We have a lot in common. I was dx with her 2 cancer in 2001. I have had three recurrences and am waiting to see what happens with a stupid lump I fount in my collarbone. I have three kids and a great guy for a husband. Cancer stinks and I hate October, too.
    I started a blog a few years ago http://www.Godhasgotit.bloodspot.com. I haven’t touched it in along time, but I am thinking of starting a new one. The Lord has got me through this far, I am going to be praying for you. Contact me via Facebook if you like. Take care, and stay strong. Isaiah 41:10

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